Defeated or Not

Today I sat in my recliner battling Hudson to drink his bottle while Roddy cried while Emma held him and Kaitlyn ran around yelling at me that she wasn't wearing shorts under her skirt even though her PE teacher said she had to. She was in a cranky mood because she woke up with cold sores inside her mouth. After getting the girls ready and attempting breakfast even though Kaitlyn couldn't eat anything. I looked up and realized there were five mins left before the bus came. I had been attempting to get Kaitlyn to out shoes and socks on meanwhile she stomped up and down the stairs complaining and Emma followed after her telling her she was mean for not getting ready fast so they could play. Thankfully at this point the boys were happily anhialating their pancakes in their high chairs. I stripped Hudson down (he was covered in everything) brushed Roddy off and herded everyone outside. I was madly dashing to the bus stop with Kaitlyn in tow on her scooter when I look back at my sweet six year old trying to grab her scooter out of our garage right as the bus pulls up. I got them on the bus, came back in and as I was changing diapers I realized I needed to load up the twins and go to the social security office again with twins in tow to get a ss card for Kaitlin's whose was lost in the move. I sat back and thought, "that's it, last nights 1am with Kaitlyn, 3am,4am and 5am with the twins has defeated me. After this morning I am going to lay in a puddle on the floor with the babies."

And then......I remembered my Savior. How somehow when he should have been the most defeated he managed to carry his heavy cross up the hill and after being nailed up there he still found strength of courage to forgive the people who had wronged him. I was given a talk to speak on in two weeks from Elder Uchtdorffs conference talk, "Grateful in any circumstance" since I got the assignment Monday night I have been trying to keep my mind in that direction. It made me stop and think when I was at Kmart yesterday and the lady really wanted to sign me up for their rewards program. Now normally with the twins I am not the most patient shopper but for some reason it didn't bother me and when she gave me a five dollar gift card and turned to the lady she was training behind her and said, " now see how I did that? I can choose to give those away because she was so sweet. If she had been hateful I wouldn't have done it." Now five dollar card aside it made me realize, how many times am I in such a hurry that I am that hateful shopper, annoyed to death with the slow checkout lady who keeps freezing her computer?

It made me want to be so much more Christlike and charitable everyday. So that is my challenge and goal and I hope you will take it with me. Let us be more charitable to those around us. Not just our family but anyone we see. Let us be grateful in any circumstance and when we are frustrated with others stupidity:) let us be charitable just as our father in heaven is of us. I love you all and am sorry for the rant but I felt really impressed to share my thoughts today even though I am still sitting in yoga pants with no laundry done. Ps listen to Hilary Weeks "who you are" this week if you get the chance!